Month: January 2016

She Was Humbled…

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My oldest is 22, she lives on her own, she’s a college graduate, she’s the best big sister my boys could ever ask for. She’s always been a good daughter to me. The only thing she lacks is faith in the Lord. She knows He exists and is very real, but she thinks….well, quite frankly, I don’t know what she thinks. 

Anyway, today she joined us (me and my 10 year old son) to church service. We were both excited because she’s always working or has one excuse or another why she can’t make it. Pastor was delivering the Word, which I believe was a personal message to her, as it may have been to others as well. Pastor went on to say in his sermon how the devil was a liar and will use everything and anything to bring us down and how we must not allow this to happen. My son leaned over and said, “My sister really needs to hear this.” I nodded in agreement. 

Next, came altar call. Pastor started off with, “If you don’t know Him as your Lord and Savior, I invite you to come up and receive Him”. He continues and says, “If you have been drowning, not in water, but if you feel you can only stay afloat so much longer, He’s calling you today.” While this is happening, I’m worshipping with my eyes closed and just worshipping on His greatness and I’m saying, “Please God, touch her today, fill her up with You, she needs You, I, her mother, am asking this of You.” My 10 year old grabs my elbow and I open my eyes and I see her, my daughter, on her way up to the altar. My son raises his hands and tears started rolling down his cheeks. I too was moved in that moment. My daughter, who has always been shy, was standing there with her head bowed, crying. In that moment I knew I did not need to ask anything of Him. He drew her there today. He was waiting for her. As He waits for all of us. 

I love my God! My Father whose everlasting love knows no bounds. He is limitless. All you have to do is grab on to Him. Come on! He is waiting!!

1 Peter 5:6-7, Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, 7 casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.

All the bitter weary ways
Endless striving day by day
You barely have the strength to pray
In the valley low

And how hard your fight has been
How deep the pain within
Wounds that no one else has seen
Hurts too much to show

All the doubt you’re standing in between
And all the weight that brings you to your knees

[Chorus:]
He knows
He knows
Every hurt and every sting
He has walked the suffering
He knows
He knows
Let your burdens come undone
Lift your eyes up to the one
Who knows
He knows
He knows

We may faint and we may sink
Feel the pain and near the brink
But the dark begins to shrink
When you find the one who knows

The chains of doubt that held you in between
one by one are starting to break free

[Chorus]

Every time you feel forsaken
Every time that you feel alone
He is near to the brokenhearted
Every tear
He knows
He knows

He Knows – Jeremy Camp

The Picture Worth 1 Word…..God

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I came upon this screen shot in my phone…my son wrote this in the summer of 2015 when God picked him up off a jail cell floor and changed his life…He continues to breathe life into my boy..He continues to guide his path…He continues and will continue to continue….His love and mercy are everlasting..and I’m so glad that my son has felt His love. See my son didn’t have his biological father’s love so he was angry and leery about God’s existence. As you can read, God didn’t care about what he’d said, what he’d done, or who he was..He simply loved my boy and my boy felt it for the first time…the love of a Father…I had that same experience when I first felt God’s love..I can only pray for everyone to open their hearts to feel His everlasting love.
Be blessed!!!!

Not Forgotten

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Have you ever felt forgotten? Alone? Duped by someone you thought was your friend? Or by someone you thought was different than the rest? I am sure most, if not all of you reading, are nodding your heads in agreement.

Tonight’s reading brought me to think of those times when I felt forgotten, alone, or duped. Psalm 27:5-8. To be honest, in my BC (Before Christ) life I would have been angry, gone out, been mean, and had a few drinks to make myself feel better. But, I am no longer her. My best friend, the love of my life, my Father, our God has shown me that no matter what He won’t forget me or dupe me. He is not fake, He doesn’t pretend, He doesn’t lie and most all, He will never hurt me. I know I can turn to Him, run to Him, for I am worthy of His love, we all are.

“This Is Home”

I’ve got my memories
Always inside of me
But I can’t go back
Back to how it was
I believe you now
I’ve come too far
No I can’t go back
Back to how it was

Created for a place I’ve never known

[Chorus]
This is home
Now I’m finally where I belong
Where I Belong
Yeah, this is home
I’ve been searching for a place of my own
Now I’ve found it
Maybe this is home
This is home

Belief over misery
I’ve seen the enemy
And I won’t go back
Back to how it was
And I got my heart set on what happens next
I got my eyes wide it’s not over yet
We are miracles and we’re not alone

[Chorus]

And now after all my searching
After all my questions
I’m gonna call it home
I’ve got a brand new mindset
I can finally see the sunset
I’m gonna call it home

[Chorus]

Now I know
Yeah, this is home
I’ve come too far
And I won’t go back
Yeah, this is home

This is home – Switchfoot

Without Him

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I usually write, worship, and pray for 2 hours or more sometimes, each day. Yesterday I did not.

When I woke up this morning I had no energy, I did not have any type of “want to” in me. I felt drained mentally, emotionally, physically, and most of all spiritually.

I started my day, went to work and immediately noticed little things bothering me that usually hadn’t in over a year. And yes, I heard it, a whisper in the back of my mind. I didn’t want to acknowledge it because then that meant I’d have to say it out loud. Was it myself, the enemy, or God? What I was hearing was, “You missed one day of your spiritual meal and look at you.” So I said it, “Ok, ok, I missed one day to pay attention to other things and people and did not spend time with You, I’m sorry”. Once I said it out loud I felt the weight lift. I realized then what I already knew, His Word feeds us, makes us strong, keeps us strong, and I needed it in that moment.

I always have this image of Him standing over me or next  to me, nudging me ever so slightly, whispering to me, “Andi, I’m here.” And even when I don’t acknowledge Him, He stays right there with me, maybe shaking His head a little (in my relationship with Him we are sarcastic with each other) and saying, “Come on, you can fight this, you can do it, I know you know better chica.” When I finally do acknowledge Him, everything brightens and He pats me on the shoulder and says, “Ok, let’s push through together girl, I’m right here with you.”

I think our conversations are this way because while growing up I really didn’t have anyone to push me, teach me, or guide me. Now, (even then, only I didn’t know it) I have the best Father ever!!

Sometimes our hearts and flesh will fail but we must remember and know that He is with us all the way…no matter what! He loves us, cares for us, and will never leave us! God Bless!!

There’s a peace I’ve come to know
Though my heart and flesh may fail
There’s an anchor for my soul
I can say “It is well”

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

[Chorus:]
And I will rise when He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagles’ wings
Before my God fall on my knees
And rise
I will rise

-I Will Rise, Chris Tomlin

My Disobedience

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I was having a bad, judgmental moment a little while ago. I didn’t want to listen to God. I was being disobedient. I was having a slight tantrum and said, NO! I am tired.I had just a little blip of a disagreement with a friend. Unbeknownst to him I had decided (on my own) to ignore his unspoken plea for help. I felt like, you need help? Ask me. I’m not a mind reader. I was being very haughty. And I have no idea why. I thought to myself in that moment, it’s prayer journal time for me, I’ll work it out there. I came to sit and I was opening my binder and I saw a journal sheet I had printed of bible verses when you need to let go of anger, bitterness, etc. Ephesians 4:31-32 was there on the page. I turned to my bible, opened it, and felt a pang of “I’m in trouble”. I heard in my head, “How dare you, when I helped you and you had not asked me or had not obeyed me!” I sat there, completely humbled and defeated.

I accepted in my heart that my friend needs help, but is stubborn, as I was/am. He won’t ask me. I will be useful, helpful, kind, and compassionate to whatever he may need.

God speaks to us, lovingly but also He scolds us when we disobey. He moves in us to help one another. I won’t fight it, I shouldn’t, WE shouldn’t.

Just as he pulled me out of the dark pit of ugliness, maybe I’m to guide my friend somehow. Whatever it may be, God wants me to help him, I will.

Father, forgive me for my disobedience, for my unwillingness to help, my unkindness, and for not having compassion for my friend and his feelings. I will obey you in all you want and need of me. Amen. 

New Blog, First Post

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Hey, so welcome to my newest blog! My name is Britney and I am a Pentecostal Christian from Sydney, Australia. Pretty much how this will work is I’m going to update this blog weekly most likely every Friday afternoon, possibly Sunday. This blog will include things like, revelations, devotion ideas, journal ideas, any prayer requests either I or others have and basically a lot of stuff about Jesus, God and life in a Pentecostal church in Australia.

Feel free to send me any prayer requests you may have

Much Love.

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