I’ve been absent for awhile now, I don’t know if I was missed or not. But I’m here tonight. I have been going through major spiritual attacks. I’m talking knock out, drag out, ’til the 12th round fights. To the point of complete exhaustion and illness. I don’t know how I could have made it through without my lil big bro Carlos, who day by day, battled for me in the spirit. Lead me in the right directions and kept me filled with His word, even when I couldn’t read a word of it because of illness. I would pray constantly and I knew He was with me, as I wanted to give up, but I could feel Him pushing me, saying Andi, I chose you, because you are a fighter and always have been, your life struggles were for a reason, this very reason. I’d get up, battle in prayer, as well as physically. It was difficult at times, but I knew I wasn’t alone. We are never alone. Through it all, on dark days, He shone His light in my life, by blessing after blessing. Which for me, was simply waking up to fight another day.
A friend of my lil big bro Carlos, who is a spiritual warrior, told him that I was being attacked because I was doing exactly what I was supposed to be doing…witnessing to others. Something that now is so easy and simple for me to do, was my downfall, for lack of a better word. I realized that every single day, I had witnessed to someone or the same person over and over and each day I’d get weaker and weaker, sicker and sicker. I’ll give you an example. A coworker of mine, kept asking me out to dinner, etc. I could tell he was not someone I could do that with, was my spirit telling me that? I began to talk with him about why I couldn’t. I said, you do things that are not good for your spirit, you don’t seek God, you don’t read the Word. As each day passed, he became more intrigued by my questions and answers to questions he’d asked me. He finally told me that he grew up in the church but fell away and I said, so see, you know better, but turn away. He then started looking up scripture to prove me wrong, when in fact, as I’m sure we all know, proved me right. I got him to go back into the Word to seek answers. Another coworker told me, that I gave him hope because he remembered how I had been before and how I’ve changed because of God. He said, I want what you have. I told him, He’s right there, just seek Him, He’s waiting for you. There are some other instances I could mention, but I’d be here all night. What I do know is that I became stronger in the Word and in my spirit because of going through this. I definitely know that this is only the beginning. But I won’t be scared away, nope, not me. I will fight tooth and nail to save souls and bring them to know Him. If that’s what He wants me doing, than I shall obey Him.
2 Corinthians 10:3-4
For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh, for the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but divinely powerful for the destruction of fortresses.