I’ve lived club life, bar life etc. Nothing came of it but temporary pleasures. Nothing consistent, no joy, no peace, no love etc came from my B.C. ways except a son. I came out of her because I wanted more. At some point we have to stop lying to ourselves about happiness, loving ourselves etc. We tell ourselves what we want to hear and we hope the mask doesn’t fall off. If we don’t have a personal relationship with God then we’re spinning tires. God gives us a solid foundation. Say the tough prayer, “God show me who I truly am, remove harmful people out of my life no matter who it is, change me, I don’t want to live these lies and distractions, take me off this unrighteous hamster wheel, show me real consistent peace and happiness, what did You make me for, I’m tired Lord, I know this can’t be all there is to life, show me more, I know there’s more, I feel it but I don’t know how to give up these unrighteous lifestyles I’m living right now, help me God…” 🎯🎯🎯
Bro. Marquis Johnson
God spoke to me and told me I have to say “no”. I truly struggle with this though. I have to get out of His way. What I mean by this is giving, going extra, sacrificing etc for people, especially loved ones. I have gotten in trouble with God because I didn’t say “no”. God was purposely stretching, testing those people but here I come and bail them out of their situation. I didn’t ask Him if I could help them out or not. I just did it without checking with Him first. Their financial storm was His strategic doing but here I come calming the winds without His say so. I was out of His will and I was so wrong. Heart in the right place but I stepped on Abba’s toes. I was that big brother that was sad when my siblings got whoopins. I be sad when my loved ones goin through some troubles. I want to help any way I can. God has made it so I don’t have the money to help them or He makes me so busy and tired that I can’t give my time. I’ve given my people thousands before. Whether it was legal or B.C. illegal, if I had it or could find away to help, “I got you” was my final words. I think I could’ve been hurting them then helping them. Enabling, but thinking I’m showing love? Pushing them further away from God instead, wow. I’ve cried about this, literally. I ask Him how do I balance being a cheerful giver like the Word says without stepping out of turn with Him. Brother Marcus said something yesterday in service that made me gasp in shock. He said his love language is giving, specifically gifting. The Spirit shuddered in me like “message”. I fought tears then. I can’t help I have a servant’s heart. I don’t mean to sound carnal but it sometimes seems like a gift and a curse. Pastor told me I care which is a good strength but he followed with my weakness is I care too much. This is one of my top struggles. I don’t ask for it in return. I don’t ask people for nothing don’t call in favors etc. My mom the only person I ask for small things and even that’s rare. I give when I’m broke, I’ve risked overdraft fees for some, lol. I’ve repented for getting in His way. God wants to be our only option unless He sends help. I have to say “no” unless He says it’s ok to bless them.
Bro. Marquis Johnson
Father’s Day isn’t like other days. There’s mixed emotions, seriously. Some hate the day. I’m sure there are people that may feel the same about Mother’s Day, but for some reason it seems to me that there are more people not being quiet about their dislike of Fathers Day. The dislike for today rings louder, people aren’t being shy about saying they “hate Father’s Day”. It’s to the point that some single mothers seem to make it a priority to throw mega shade on Father’s Day because of their broken relationship with their children/s dad. This has been the devil’s tactics since the beginning. To destroy families any way possible. Unfortunately some men let him come into their gardens and wreak havoc. The pride of us men will make us think we can fight the devil and win. Newsflash, fellas we can’t beat Satan without Jesus, period!!! Our pride has been destroying our families and other relationships for far too long. Satan is the only victor when we fight evil without God. The woman suffers, the son and the daughter suffers. It’s a nasty cycle Satan puts some of us on. Then the women hate us and then the kids hate us because mom hates us, then the boys are raised by women and act feminine and may fall prey to that lifestyle. Oh and baby girl start looking for a father figure in the wrong places. Now she on the track or a pole or both, being managed by a person that fell prey to the devil’s tactics too. Sometimes God takes away fathers to protect us though. Truth be told, God knows our futures, amen. The lil girl that’s grown now that wish she had an earthly father could have been saved by God from the raping hands of her own blood father, hmm? God knew it so He removed him out of her life to protect her from that hurt. God knows what He’s doing, amen. God is the Pops of Pops. He can without a doubt replace any broken relationship we have. God can never be a deadbeat. God can help men repair their strained relationships with their kids. A righteous earthly father is a blessing to have no doubt but all the righteous men in the world love will never compare to God’s love for us. Let your hate and bitterness toward your dad go, ask God to fill that void. It’s not too late and you’re not too old. Dads that haven’t been good dads, ask Him to show you how. Yes you missed ball games and recitals, but don’t let Satan keep feeding you garbage. God will meet us right where we are. You can start by humbling yourself, look in the mirror and say “God fix me”. Be brave. Don’t say you’re a man but you maneuver like a coward!!! God will be your strength!!! God is Father to the fatherless and fathered. We all have had a dad even if we couldn’t see Him. He’s right with you, amen.
Bro. Marquis Johnson
Sometimes God use people to hurt us into His waiting arms. I realized that a couple years back. The worse hurt of my life turned into the best hurt. See we can’t get mad at Him. He has unorthodox ways, but when we talk to Him, ask Him to teach us His mind and heart. Then we won’t maliciously blame Him for troubles.
2 Consider it nothing but joy, my <span class="footnote" data-fn="#fen-AMP-30269a" data-link="[a]” style=”font-size: 0.625em; line-height: 22px; vertical-align: top;”>[a]brothers and sisters, whenever you fall into various trials. 3 Be assured that the testing of your faith [through experience] produces endurance [leading to spiritual maturity, and inner peace]. 4 And let endurance have its perfect result and do a thorough work, so that you may be perfect and completely developed [in your faith], lacking in nothing.
5 If any of you lacks wisdom [to guide him through a decision or circumstance], he is to ask of [our benevolent] God, who gives to everyone generously and without rebuke or blame, and it will be given to him. 6 But he must ask [for wisdom] in faith, without doubting [God’s willingness to help], for the one who doubts is like a billowing surge of the sea that is blown about and tossed by the wind. 7 For such a person ought not to think or expect that he will receive anything [at all] from the Lord, 8 being a double-minded man, unstable and restless in all his ways [in everything he thinks, feels, or decides].
Bro. Marquis Johnson
One of the frustrating things about working with substance abuse is a scenario that appears to repeat itself. There might be different people filling the necessary roles, but certain themes present themselves over and over again. For example, there’s usually someone filling a “hero” role, someone filling a “good cop” role and, the one I see within substance abuse treatment, someone filling a “scapegoat” role.
Often, families come to need the substance abuser to continue using. While it may sound strange, it’s a pattern that I do see and I think it’s rooted in the fact that, while the substance abuser is actively abusing substances, the individuals within the family can focus their attention on the substance abuser and not on themselves. The substance abuser can become the scapegoat, of sorts, for those families whose relationships are toxic. That is, the substance abuser is seen as the problem within the…
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