Stop recycling the hurt!!! No matter who you date or marry next, we will bring the same dysfunction with us into the new relationship if Jesus didn’t do the healing of our minds and hearts first. A band aid can’t stop the bleeding of a gaping hole in our hearts. We’re worth more than a temporary fix. We can’t call ourselves kings and queens but yet treat ourselves like peasants. If we truly love ourselves then we should let His love do the healing in us. His surgery is permanent. We’ll be better of on His operating table. Let’s stop lying to ourselves. 💯💯💯
Bro. Marquis Johnson
Since I last wrote, I’ve had many revelations with my family’s and son’s situations. Through this pain and through this storm I have found that no matter what is thrown at me, He will always be at the forefront battling for me and there is no need for me to come against someone physically. I will tell you that through these storms and trials I asked God and pretty much pleaded with Him to reveal to me or simply help me in this matter. On a Saturday morning a few weeks ago, I was a mess emotionally and there was a women’s breakfast with Sis Flo Shaw, that I was not supposed to attend because I couldn’t afford it. But well, God sent my lil big bro Carlos to the rescue and he gave me the money to go. He said if he didn’t obey and I was supposed to be there, he didn’t want to get in trouble with the Lord. I will tell you that whatever had been holding me prisoner those 5 days prior, was completely ripped from me. I literally felt it being ripped from my chest. It was funny because my flesh kept looking for that feeling of fear, condemnation, guilt, confusion, anxiety, but they were nowhere to be found. I can tell you that since that morning until this very moment, I have found true peace in all of this. I hold on to His promises to me. I hold on to the fact that He knows what is best and He knows what He is doing in our lives, things that we will never understand. It was also revealed to me that no matter what I do or think, vengeance is never mine, but His. I learned that as long as I keep thinking that my enemies are horrible people, they will stay exactly that, horrible people BUT, when I choose to see them how He sees them, I can truly let go and let Him. I won’t make myself or my family be prisoners of my/our enemies. As much as all these storms have caused us all pain and suffering, I gladly embrace every single storm/lesson that He wishes me to go through and learn from because He is the only one who knows why.
I don’t know why I am sharing this with you today. I just felt led to.
Have a happy and safe 4th of July!
God bless you all!!
Ladies, is she helping your hurt or helping your healing? Are your bffs trying to hook you up with another man already?!?! Fellas are your homeboys trying to get you back in the big hunt? Is your homie helping your hurt or helping your healing? You’re bleeding inside in your chest but all your “people” do is hand you a band-aid, really!!! Temporary fixes don’t help, just numbs the pain. The illness, issues are still there. People in their 80s still bleeding from things up to 70 years ago. Jesus is the Surgeon. He can stitch you back up and make your heart better than before. Ladies, be around the right help that will encourage healthy healing of your mind and heart. Your ❤ doesn’t have to be broke for life. Hop up on His operating table before Satan keep doing malpractice on you. Your bestie a bad nurse if all she wants to do is go to the club and try to hook you up. 🤔🤔🤔
Bro. Marquis Johnson
I’ve lived club life, bar life etc. Nothing came of it but temporary pleasures. Nothing consistent, no joy, no peace, no love etc came from my B.C. ways except a son. I came out of her because I wanted more. At some point we have to stop lying to ourselves about happiness, loving ourselves etc. We tell ourselves what we want to hear and we hope the mask doesn’t fall off. If we don’t have a personal relationship with God then we’re spinning tires. God gives us a solid foundation. Say the tough prayer, “God show me who I truly am, remove harmful people out of my life no matter who it is, change me, I don’t want to live these lies and distractions, take me off this unrighteous hamster wheel, show me real consistent peace and happiness, what did You make me for, I’m tired Lord, I know this can’t be all there is to life, show me more, I know there’s more, I feel it but I don’t know how to give up these unrighteous lifestyles I’m living right now, help me God…” 🎯🎯🎯
Bro. Marquis Johnson
God spoke to me and told me I have to say “no”. I truly struggle with this though. I have to get out of His way. What I mean by this is giving, going extra, sacrificing etc for people, especially loved ones. I have gotten in trouble with God because I didn’t say “no”. God was purposely stretching, testing those people but here I come and bail them out of their situation. I didn’t ask Him if I could help them out or not. I just did it without checking with Him first. Their financial storm was His strategic doing but here I come calming the winds without His say so. I was out of His will and I was so wrong. Heart in the right place but I stepped on Abba’s toes. I was that big brother that was sad when my siblings got whoopins. I be sad when my loved ones goin through some troubles. I want to help any way I can. God has made it so I don’t have the money to help them or He makes me so busy and tired that I can’t give my time. I’ve given my people thousands before. Whether it was legal or B.C. illegal, if I had it or could find away to help, “I got you” was my final words. I think I could’ve been hurting them then helping them. Enabling, but thinking I’m showing love? Pushing them further away from God instead, wow. I’ve cried about this, literally. I ask Him how do I balance being a cheerful giver like the Word says without stepping out of turn with Him. Brother Marcus said something yesterday in service that made me gasp in shock. He said his love language is giving, specifically gifting. The Spirit shuddered in me like “message”. I fought tears then. I can’t help I have a servant’s heart. I don’t mean to sound carnal but it sometimes seems like a gift and a curse. Pastor told me I care which is a good strength but he followed with my weakness is I care too much. This is one of my top struggles. I don’t ask for it in return. I don’t ask people for nothing don’t call in favors etc. My mom the only person I ask for small things and even that’s rare. I give when I’m broke, I’ve risked overdraft fees for some, lol. I’ve repented for getting in His way. God wants to be our only option unless He sends help. I have to say “no” unless He says it’s ok to bless them.
Bro. Marquis Johnson
Father’s Day isn’t like other days. There’s mixed emotions, seriously. Some hate the day. I’m sure there are people that may feel the same about Mother’s Day, but for some reason it seems to me that there are more people not being quiet about their dislike of Fathers Day. The dislike for today rings louder, people aren’t being shy about saying they “hate Father’s Day”. It’s to the point that some single mothers seem to make it a priority to throw mega shade on Father’s Day because of their broken relationship with their children/s dad. This has been the devil’s tactics since the beginning. To destroy families any way possible. Unfortunately some men let him come into their gardens and wreak havoc. The pride of us men will make us think we can fight the devil and win. Newsflash, fellas we can’t beat Satan without Jesus, period!!! Our pride has been destroying our families and other relationships for far too long. Satan is the only victor when we fight evil without God. The woman suffers, the son and the daughter suffers. It’s a nasty cycle Satan puts some of us on. Then the women hate us and then the kids hate us because mom hates us, then the boys are raised by women and act feminine and may fall prey to that lifestyle. Oh and baby girl start looking for a father figure in the wrong places. Now she on the track or a pole or both, being managed by a person that fell prey to the devil’s tactics too. Sometimes God takes away fathers to protect us though. Truth be told, God knows our futures, amen. The lil girl that’s grown now that wish she had an earthly father could have been saved by God from the raping hands of her own blood father, hmm? God knew it so He removed him out of her life to protect her from that hurt. God knows what He’s doing, amen. God is the Pops of Pops. He can without a doubt replace any broken relationship we have. God can never be a deadbeat. God can help men repair their strained relationships with their kids. A righteous earthly father is a blessing to have no doubt but all the righteous men in the world love will never compare to God’s love for us. Let your hate and bitterness toward your dad go, ask God to fill that void. It’s not too late and you’re not too old. Dads that haven’t been good dads, ask Him to show you how. Yes you missed ball games and recitals, but don’t let Satan keep feeding you garbage. God will meet us right where we are. You can start by humbling yourself, look in the mirror and say “God fix me”. Be brave. Don’t say you’re a man but you maneuver like a coward!!! God will be your strength!!! God is Father to the fatherless and fathered. We all have had a dad even if we couldn’t see Him. He’s right with you, amen.
Bro. Marquis Johnson